. . . that is the question.
I've been asked out on a date recently and I've had an interesting array of reactions. On discussing the whole idea of "meeting someone" with friends and family my constant reaction is . . . . I don't have the energy, or I can't be bothered. Let's face it - my life's quite full enough. However, there has been a constant nagging at the back of my mind that says "Are you sure this is how you feel or is it your way of accepting the status quo (i.e. three small children, living with your parents, given up your career)? Well, now that I've been asked on a date I can honestly say it's truly how I feel.
My initial reaction was to be excited. Wow, even in my current state of disrepair someone finds me attractive. Then reality hit:
1. I don't have the energy to find my "date" clothes amongst all the boxes in the garage;
2. I don't have the energy to explain to whomever I could get to look after the kids where I'm going;
3. I have so little time without the children, I don't want to spend that time with a loved one, let alone someone I barely know.
So it's good to have my answer at last. I truly am happy being single, being surrogate mum to the children, having my few friends, projects and family as my core. It's all quite liberating really.